It happened! Many of you know that we were expecting a miscarriage, and after 4 weeks of waiting and wondering....IT happened! I won't go into the details, but I had complications with the event and had to go to the hospital and ultimately have a D & C (minor surgery) to stop some bleeding. God is good and over the 4 weeks of waiting, He was preparing us (especially me) for the emotional and physical battle that the day brought! I am so thankful that I had time between knowing and the actual event.
Many have asked how we are doing. This is a little piece of what I am feeling during this time.
I will say that this has been an amazing growing time in my Christian walk. Having to trust that God is in total control and that He ultimately has a plan and reason for this happening, has really challenged me. Even though I don't expect to understand His reasons, I am trusting in His perfect plan. My heart is eager for the day when I will get to see my son or daughter in heaven and I know that he/she is in very good hands...the same hands that are holding me right now! And truthfully, that is such a comfort to me!
We have been so blessed with such an amazing support group from friends and family. Even though this is a difficult time/experience, we have been given so much hope and peace through this trial. Thank you all for your encouragement. You are a tremendous blessing to us!!!
Monday, March 22, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
New Pics!
I uploaded some recent pics of little man and wanted to share them. So here are a few!
Here are a few of little man's first time making cookies. We had a blast and he loved the experience!
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
For I Know The Plans I Have For You!
Truthfully, I really didn't know for the longest time whether I should or shouldn't publish this post. The fact is, that this is a very personal part of my/our lives and therefore more difficult to write about in a public setting. However, after much thought and prayer I feel as though someone/anyone can use this circumstance as encouragement, if not a deeper understanding, of where our hearts are. So the story begins...
About 5 weeks ago, we found out that we were expecting our second child. We were so eager to meet this addition to our family and were happy about the timing of this little blessing. We told family and a few friends of our great news. About a week and a half ago we arrived at our first Dr. appointment for baby with feelings of excitment and joy. This visit turned our world upside down! Our Dr. couldn't find our baby's heartbeat during an ultrasound and requested that we do additional lab work to determine if our baby was still alive. I couldn't believe my ears when I heard this! With our emotions everwhere, we decided to wait and do the labs the following week. The weekend seemed like an eternity! I went in twice for lab work to check to see if my pregnancy hormone was increasing or decreasing. This would give a clear indication of the wellness of the baby. After much anticipation, we received the news. Our baby did not survive and in the next few weeks I would miscarry. We had prepared our minds for this news and even though it is extremely sad, we both have an incredible peace about this situation.
As I said, I wanted to share this event and our feelings as an encouragement to those who read this. Thus, I want to share how God is challenging, growing, and walking with us right now through this difficult time.
4:00AM Wednesday morning (the day we found out), I was awakened by our son who is teething, I got up, put more wood on the fire, and was praying before getting back to bed. I was praying for peace, understanding (however much God wanted to give), and an overwhelming sense that He in deed was walking beside me through this and that everything WOULD be alright. Not 30 seconds after I finished praying, a very dear friend sent me a text saying that she was also praying at that time for peace and joy for us that day.This arriving at about 4:30AM. (Now, I know that not many people are up at this time of day and the timing was perfect!) Tears filled my eyes as I heard God whisper, "Everything is going to be alright."
After we found out the news, we sent word to the people that had known our situation and we were again filled with emotion after so many thoughtful words were sent our way. Thank you all for every word of encouragement! The days following the news were also filled with joy and hope as God continued to encourage and give peace.
The hope that I hold onto is that God has a plan. For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
As of now, I still have not miscarried. This, I think is a good thing right now. I feel that I will be more prepared (if only mentally) for the event and God is using this time to strengthen us in many ways.
Thanks for taking the time to venture a little more intimatly into our lives. I know that God will use this circumstance to His glory and if this will be even a little encouragement to someone, we freely give it!
About 5 weeks ago, we found out that we were expecting our second child. We were so eager to meet this addition to our family and were happy about the timing of this little blessing. We told family and a few friends of our great news. About a week and a half ago we arrived at our first Dr. appointment for baby with feelings of excitment and joy. This visit turned our world upside down! Our Dr. couldn't find our baby's heartbeat during an ultrasound and requested that we do additional lab work to determine if our baby was still alive. I couldn't believe my ears when I heard this! With our emotions everwhere, we decided to wait and do the labs the following week. The weekend seemed like an eternity! I went in twice for lab work to check to see if my pregnancy hormone was increasing or decreasing. This would give a clear indication of the wellness of the baby. After much anticipation, we received the news. Our baby did not survive and in the next few weeks I would miscarry. We had prepared our minds for this news and even though it is extremely sad, we both have an incredible peace about this situation.
As I said, I wanted to share this event and our feelings as an encouragement to those who read this. Thus, I want to share how God is challenging, growing, and walking with us right now through this difficult time.
4:00AM Wednesday morning (the day we found out), I was awakened by our son who is teething, I got up, put more wood on the fire, and was praying before getting back to bed. I was praying for peace, understanding (however much God wanted to give), and an overwhelming sense that He in deed was walking beside me through this and that everything WOULD be alright. Not 30 seconds after I finished praying, a very dear friend sent me a text saying that she was also praying at that time for peace and joy for us that day.This arriving at about 4:30AM. (Now, I know that not many people are up at this time of day and the timing was perfect!) Tears filled my eyes as I heard God whisper, "Everything is going to be alright."
After we found out the news, we sent word to the people that had known our situation and we were again filled with emotion after so many thoughtful words were sent our way. Thank you all for every word of encouragement! The days following the news were also filled with joy and hope as God continued to encourage and give peace.
The hope that I hold onto is that God has a plan. For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
As of now, I still have not miscarried. This, I think is a good thing right now. I feel that I will be more prepared (if only mentally) for the event and God is using this time to strengthen us in many ways.
Thanks for taking the time to venture a little more intimatly into our lives. I know that God will use this circumstance to His glory and if this will be even a little encouragement to someone, we freely give it!
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